If the first couple of months of 2024 indicate how the rest of this year is going to go, I’m going to have a good one.
I quit my 9 to 5 job this past Monday. I took the job last summer when freelancing work dried up suddenly. It was a terrible fit for me though and I quickly became depressed, moody, and a whole different person. Daddy encouraged me as much as he could, supporting me heavily through the last seven months. But, in the end, leaving the job was the best choice I could make and one he wholeheartedly approved of. He gave me permission Sunday night and Monday morning I was finished.
I’ve had about four days to rest since then and I am feeling better than I have in months. I’m sleeping a lot, getting fatigued easily, but, emotionally, I’m on a whole other planet. Funny how much a simple office job can suck the energy out of you and prevent you from doing things. I’m struggling with a lot of internalized ableism around all of it but my therapist is helping me with that.
I’ve opened QC a dozen and a half times this week, trying to decide what to do with the blog. I came up with a schedule for the month but haven’t written anything for it. I’ve briefly wondered if it’s time to retire the blog but, frankly, I love blogging. I just haven’t had the energy to devote to it since it isn’t an income maker for me. Prioritization and all of that. But, now, I think I do and I think I can bring QC back to where I was at in the beginning.
In my 2024 goals post, I wrote that I wanted to teach more in my local community. That is certainly happening. I now lead two groups and teach my classes independently every fourth Sunday. I’m enjoying becoming entrenched in the kink community again and it’s helping me feel more grounded. I think, between blogging and teaching, I will find myself again.
I hope these things are signs of what is to come and what is in my future. I have been so tired of not feeling like myself, not liking myself, and I am ready to rediscover who I am. It’s why I picked the word authentic for the year. I want to be authentically myself in every direction possible. And that starts with returning to writing.
I don’t have an exact plan for QC just yet but please know that I am here, in the background, working on things and trying to bring it back up to where I want it to be. I’m going to slowly drip out articles over the next few months and pick up some old secret plans of mine.
In the meantime, I’m trying to get more active on Instagram, Threads, and X so follow me there. Let me know what you’d love to read about, want more information on, or just are curious about my life or dynamic.
See you soon, my lovely readers.
